A Tangent.

I had a revelation the other day. My sister recently told me that I treat boys like crap which is why I have no guy friends. And I decided, she's right. So that got me to wondering why I'm like that, and I came to a conclusion I feel the need to share. Now I can go into this long tangent about my past relationships with boys and my father and my life and how I once viewed the opposite sex, but that would bore even me (or start tears of pathetic self-pity). Extremely long tangent cut short, I think I'm just afraid of them. I don't know how to act around them except to expect them to pursue me. All the guys I've ever really dealt with in the past have been cowards or have hurt me in some way. Needless to say, I do attract nor befriend the best guys. Or I smother them and chase them away.

So now I've got this defense against them. If I'm cold, then I won't get hurt. I'm not like that with any girls, just guys, and especially the guys I really like (mhm). Weird, isn't it? I feel like an adolescent again when I think about it. Yech, boys. But I love some of you! Ha. Alright, well, tangent over.