Monday, 30 May 2011

Pushing Daisies. And No More Finals!

I love Pushing Daisies. I love Ned. I love Ned. I love Lee Pace. I love Lee Pace. I love Lee Pace. (Are you convinced yet?)

I think it's very interesting how low Olive's shirts get later and later in the episodes and how fashionable she looks in this picture. I'm also intrigued as to why there aren't any daisies in this picture like all the others...though I guess Anna Friel's dress works out. (I LOVE THAT SHE'S BRITISH.)
And here is my beloved:


He has gray eyes that don't really come out when he's against a really bright blue background. Brown hair, gray eyes...adorable awkwardness...that's the works, my friends. Watching Pushing Daisies with my favorite person at Knox has gotten me back into that funk. I LOVE this funk.

Friday, 27 May 2011

Venting Because I Can't Articulate My Feelings Out Loud

Maybe the reason I have such an animosity against men and personal relationships with boys is, besides the fact that none of the ones that surround me appeal to me, all of them are jerks. And personal relationships just create such a...such a strain on your lifestyle and your physical and mental health. Take my parents for an example. Both of them are headstrong, but because of my parents' views of conservative social gender roles, my dad has to dominate my mom and not only that but treats her like crap. He can wine and dine her all he wants on their little dates and trips, but when push comes to shove, she's the one that has to take care of the kids and the grandparents and the house and the food while he makes the money and orders her around and picks on her when he's angry. Who does that? A five year old. And the fact that he can't interact with his kids, that he's at a loss of words when we try to have a conversation; it hurts his family and ruins relationships. My mom becomes the mediator and I just...I just never want to be in that kind of relationship, ever. It turns me off on the idea of marriage in general. I'm sure there's happy couples, and I love seeing that. There's so few of those in the world now.

And recently I heard of two semi-personal instances where a husband was cheating on his wife, and that's just wrong. I can't even express how wrong it is. When you come into a relationship, you put so much trust into one person. They're only human, they'll fail you. But to cheat? That's just despicable. I think that's probably the absolute worst possible thing to do. It makes me, and I'm sure other people, so angry that people have the audacity to cheat on their loved ones or their spouses. You can blame it on everything under the sun, but it doesn't make the fact that you did the deed any better. It's wrong, period. That trust between loved ones is so important and so dangerous. Trust is fragile, and just seeing mankind being this way makes me think that I can't put my trust into any romantic relationship because we're all humans, and humans have temptations and make mistakes. And I don't know if I can deal with that.

And here's another thought. Maybe marriage should be illegal for straight people. People take marriage for granted, just like it's the next step in the love instruction manual or something. Maybe if people were just barred from getting married in general they would appreciate it more and appreciate the bond that it gives them. It's not just something on a piece of paper. It's a big commitment. If commitment scares you, then back off because marriage isn't for you. And it's not for everybody. Instead of doing it just to be unhappy in the end, just don't do it. Then you won't add to the 40+% of couples getting divorced in the world.

Thursday, 26 May 2011

As I Sit Here and Eat My Sandwich...

...and memorize a French poem for French class, I've come to realize how much I appreciate my professor's attempt to introduce us to the French culture. Even if it's a little old school. But I'm memorizing a poem now by Charles Baudelaire, and I have to say, he has become one of my favorite poets. Even if it's all in French, this poem is wonderful. Another reason to continue to learn, as my professor would say, "the beautiful French language." It really is, you know. So this poem, by the wonderful (and slightly pessimistic) Charles Baudelaire, is entitled "Get Drunk." Yes, funny title, I know. But it's a wonderful poem about immersing yourself in life, whether it be on wine or poetry or virtues. I love English poems, and learning French will just be another culture to get into. And this is just a little snippet of it, written by Baudelaire.

Enivrez-vous!

Il faut étre toujours ivre. Tout est là: c’est l’unique question. Pour ne pas sentir l’horrible fardeau du Temps qui brise vos epaules et vous penche vers la terre, il faut vous enivrer sans trêve. 
Mais de quoi? De vin, de poésie ou de virtue, à votre guise, Mais enivrez-vous, Et si quelquefois
sur les marches d’un palais, sur l’herbe verte d’un fosse, dans la solitude morne de votre 
chambre, vous vous reveillez, l’ivresse déjà diminuée ou disparue, demandez au vent, à la vague, 
à l’étoile, à l’oiseau, à l’horloge, à tout ce qui fuit, à tout ce qui gémite, à tout ce qui roule, à tout ce 
qui chante, à tout ce qui parle, demandez quelle heure il est: et le vent, la vauge, l’étoile, l’oiseau, 
l’horloge, vous répondront: “Il est l’heure de s’envirer. Pour n’étre pas les esclaves martyrisés du 
Temps, enivrez-vous. Enivrez-vous sans cesse! De vin, de poésie ou de vertue, à votre guise.” 


Get Drunk!
Always be drunk. That's it : the great imperative. In order not to feel Time's horrid fate burden 
on your shoulders and grind you into the earth, get drunk and stay that way. 
On what? On wine, poetry or virtue, as you please, But get drunk, And stay that way, And if sometimes
On the porches of a palace, in the green grass of a ditch, in the dismal loneliness of your
room, you wake up, your drunkenness gone or disappearing, as the wind, the wave,
the star, the bird, the clock, everything that flees, everything that groans, everything that rolls, everything that
sings, everything that speaks, ask what time it is; and the wind, the wave, the star, the bird, 
the clock, will respond: "It is time to get drunk! Don't be martyred slaves of 
Time, get drunk; Get drunk without stop! On wine, on poetry or virtue, as you please."


-Charles Baudelaire

Monday, 23 May 2011

When it's hard to move on...

“I've never tried to block out the memories of the past, even though some are painful. I don't understand people who hide from their past. Everything you live through helps to make you the person you are now."
-Sophia Loren

“Forgiving does not erase the bitter past. A healed memory is not a deleted memory. Instead, forgiving what we cannot forget creates a new way to remember. We change the memory of our past into a hope for our future.”
- Lewis B. Smedes

Monday, 16 May 2011

Le cancre

Il dit non avec la tête
Mais il dit oui avec le coeur
Il dit oui à ce qu’il aime
Il dit non au professeur
Il est debout
On le questionne
Et tous les problèmes sont posés
Soudain le fou rire le prend
Et il efface tout
Les chiffres et les mots
Les dates et les noms
Les phrases et les pièges
Et malgré les menaces du maître
Sous les huées des enfants prodiges
Avec des craies de toutes les couleurs
Sur le tableau noir du malheur
Il dessine le visage du bonheur.

Jacques Prévert

Saturday, 14 May 2011

Forgetfulness

The name of the author is the first to go
followed obediently by the title, the plot,
the heartbreaking conclusion, the entire novel
which suddenly becomes one you have never read, never even heard of,

as if, one by one, the memories you used to harbor
decided to retire to the southern hemisphere of the brain,
to a little fishing village where there are no phones. 

Long ago you kissed the names of the nine Muses goodbye,
and watched the quadratic equation pack its bag,
and even now as you memorize the order of the planets,

something else is slipping away, a state flower perhaps,
the address of an uncle, the capital of Paraguay. 

Whatever it is you are struggling to remember
it is not poised on the tip of your tongue,
not even lurking in some obscure corner of your spleen.

It has floated away down a dark mythological river
whose name begins with an L as far as you can recall,
well on your own way to oblivion where you will join those
who have even forgotten how to swim and how to ride a bicycle. 

No wonder you rise in the middle of the night
to look up the date of a famous battle in a book on war.
No wonder the moon in the window seems to have drifted
out of a love poem that you used to know by heart. 

-Billy Collins, 1991

Friday, 6 May 2011

Post Flunk Day Blues

It's been a pretty terrible week. A really off-week. I've been slacking off and sleeping like a bear in hibernation and lazing around and nursing a sore throat. It's been bothering me for awhile now, so I looked it up on WebMD (since I don't even know where the health center is here at Knox) and it could either be viral pharyngitis (and most likely is) or mono...which I don't think could be too possible since I didn't really have a high fever. Erm, yeah. Anyway, so it's been an off-week. Staying in bed a lot, doing my own thing, not going to class, skipping my test and quiz, etc. Not a good day. Hopefully I'll get over this laziness by next week and I'll be back to normal. I just wish this stupid sore throat would go away. It makes me feel disoriented.

Tuesday, 3 May 2011

IT'S FLUNK DAY!...or it was.

HAPPY BELATED FLUNK DAY!

So my school is awesome because it has a holiday all its own that no one knows the date of until the day of its celebration! Yesterday morning at 5:30 a.m., we were woken up by the Flunk Day Friers, who were very, very loud, and my roommate got really excited and turns out it wasn't a false alarm; it was Flunk Day, a.k.a. a huge party that the school allows with no classes! So this is pretty much what my schedule looked like:

6:20 a.m.- Time to drink some.
6:30 a.m.- Mud pit! Who knew mud was so much fun with so many people?
6:50 a.m.- Foam pit! Woo! Soapy bubbles! Mud+Foam=A huge mess after we're done playing :)
7-ish a.m.- Breakfast! Never tasted so good...
7:30 a.m.- Time to get cleaned up and shower...twice.
8:00 a.m.- Ran around and played, got candy, etc.
10:00 a.m.- Went to drink with a friend. I've never gotten drunk so early in the morning. It might be unethical, but hey, it was Flunk Day!

I don't remember specific times for everything else, but heck, it was so much fun. And there was GIANT JENGA TOO! I love Jenga, and being able to pile huge Jenga blocks together was so fun. Haha! My inebriation didn't last very long, though. And my day ended at 8 p.m. when I finally went to sleep 'cause I was so tired. And then I Skyped my mom, hehe. ;) I should probably take another shower. I still smell...erm, unclean. :)

Best. Day. Ever.

Sunday, 1 May 2011

Quotations by Alexander Pope

How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;

-Alexander Pope, "Eloisa to Abelard"

A little learning is a dangerous thing;
drink deep, or taste not the Pierian spring:
there shallow draughts intoxicate the brain,
and drinking largely sobers us again.

-Alexander Pope, An Essay on Criticism