Who'da thunk?!

So I joined a sorority. OMG. I know. I never even imagined I'd do such a thing, but now I have and I guess it's been going pretty well. I just pledged today which means, uh, I'm in? It's kinda cool but at the same time a lot of commitment. Didn't I have a rant where I said I wasn't ready to commit...? Oh well. I'm excited. It'll be an interesting experience (and a helluva lot out of my bank account...). I'll have to really find jobs now or something. See if anywhere in Galesburg is hiring. Oh, gosh. I can hardly fit things into my crazy schedule let alone another job. I think I'd kill myself or have a breakdown. Hey, I guess it could be good poetry subjects. Oh man. I guess I'm going to have to find that money somehow. My dad is not going to even touch that. He's got my tuition covered, I've got my sorority tuition covered.

Oh my gosh, what have I gotten myself into?

Unstable Beings

It's funny how transitory our feelings (exclamations, indignations) are. How we can hate something so passionately at one moment and love it the next. How can we love so many things so many different ways? Like, my love for Tom Felton is not the same as the love for my mother. And I can loathe the sun on a sweltering day and crave it so desperately during the bitterly cold winters. How can human emotions be so complicated and yet so...simple? We are a contradiction. Our emotions contradict, our being, even our breath. How can we cool something and warm something with the same breath? That reminds me of a little story I read once where a faun was appalled by the human's capability to do that. Heh.

So in a sense, this is how we exemplify, perhaps unintentionally, that we are God's chosen creation. We exemplify His likeness in little ways. It's, well, strange to think about. Yet God balances Himself out while we teeter dangerously from one side (I HATE you!) to the other (I LOVE you!). We cannot grasp the contradicting emotions and yet our Lord can. Because He's big and perfect. God, our Father who is the perfect, unchanging balance, keeps us unstable beings stable. And we just need to keep our eyes on Him. I love Him for it.