Sometimes life is hard to handle

If there are a few things I have learned that I cannot handle, they are these:

1. Confrontation where I have done wrong or have been caught doing something wrong. I can escape a person's presence, but confrontations where I am in the wrong dwell on my mind for days, even weeks. I don't know if I try to rationalize it or what, but I just can't stop thinking about it and how the certain person feels about me now. Which leads to number two.

2. People disliking me. I hate the feeling when a friend suddenly stops talking to you or you're ignored because of some reason, your fault or not. I start disliking myself and I get down on myself, wondering why in the world I can't be liked, and I get really depressed. And after awhile, if nothing changes, then I can get back up, but I've taken a blow to the ego.

3. Immense amounts of praise/compliments. I especially don't receive compliments very well. I get awkward and I don't know how to act except to turn the compliment back to the giver, though secretly my ego blows up. I try to keep myself from getting too arrogant, but sometimes it's inevitable, and then I'm a danger to myself. That's when I know a hard failure is in my future.

4. Failure. I'm sure everyone struggles when they've failed, and I'm one of those who takes failure hard. Stems from childhood trauma; you know, the usual.

5. Disappointing someone. I can kill myself over that, and I've beaten myself up over and over for disappointing people. I hate doing it, and I hate it when it's done to me, although I can handle that a little bit better.